So, I’m away at school.
And I’m sure I’m supposed to be learning many things about my profession and my future. And I am!
But I live with a roommate who is never around, so I’m basically on my own all the time. I’ve made friends, sure. And I socialize, yes. But I discovered Sherlock the day that I moved away from home in June, and nothing has been the same ever since. When I move out next summer, it will be hard to leave this room. It will be hard to leave behind the hours I have spent with myself. Reading, watching, critiquing, laughing, crying, jumping up and down, gasping, tearing my hair out with excitement, creating, writing, dreaming, yearning, imagining.
There is something so strange and yet so perfect about learning to be by yourself. I enjoy spending time with others, really! And yet, I also enjoy being with myself.
But I didn’t before.
When I leave here, I will be a different person. Because I will have found myself in a way that would not have been possible if I had stayed at home.
So, the point is: Thank you, Sherlock. Thank you for giving me this gift.
And thank you, too. Yes, you. :)
"I want to repeat one word for you: Leave. Roll the word around on your tongue for a bit. It is a beautiful word, isn’t it? So strong and forceful, the way you have always wanted to be. And you will not be alone. You have never been alone. Don’t worry. Everything will still be here when you get back. It is you who will have changed.”